I’m conceited…I got a reason…hahaha

Ok, I’m not conceited but I am convinced…the Diva is a phenomenal woman. I am a perfect petite package.

In other words, I am a college educated woman that holds down three well paying jobs, has my own apartment, no children, pretty good credit & doesn’t see the point of bringing jealousy or drama into relationships…yet despite all of this, I’m still single…oh, did I mention I can cook & I have a “great personality?” yup, that’s me!

I look good on and off paper. I’m beginning to wonder if maybe I’m too much of a good thing. I’m realistic enough to know that my life is really full right now & I probably wouldn’t want to get into a full fledged relationship for fear of not being able to put enough time into it…but can’t a Diva still date???

I have often been told that I intimidate men…I don’t get that & I figure that any man intimidated by me just isn’t the man for me. Not too long ago I had a conversation with a male friend of mine that knows some of my romantic history & he told me that my problem is I’m too honest & even the confident, strong men I know aren’t ready for my level of truth. He even gave me an example of a man that I was involved with that felt I was just a bit too real at times…how can I be too honest? Isn’t everyone looking for honesty in relationships…I know I am…

I’m a firm believer of practicing what I preach…therefore I treat the man I’m with the same way I want to be treated…if you don’t want my opinion on something then don’t ask!

I also saw a picture of one of the men I was involved with and a woman he got involved with after me…now I don’t know anything more about this woman then what I’ve seen in pictures & a few tidbits that have been dropped but I assure you she is a downgrade (thanks for the terminology Ice)

The woman is attractive but doesn’t have the style or sophistication of the Diva…& she has a bad weave (ha! couldn’t forget that, could I Barbie?)

The point of this isn’t for me to trash the chick or even the dude…I’m sure that she is a lovely woman & I know he’s a remarkable man…the point is I’m left confused…

I know many divas that suffer from the same type of confusion…the stories of the country mice invading the city mice territory are endless…

So my question is can it be that us divas are just too good? Or maybe I was right when I came up with the JLo/Kim Porter theory…or maybe Ice was right…maybe these dudes downgrade because they not ready for a diva’s upkeep…

til next time…besos baby

By now everybody has heard Enough Crying by Mary J. Blige…I’ve been blasting & sharing that song since I got the album in december (thanks City)…

Now that its found its way into the regular rotation at the clubs I am convinced that it is the woman’s anthem for the summer…

I do not know one woman who has not found herself in that song…I know for me I hear it & have some old wounds open back up…I remember a few weeks after I got the album telling the Philly chapter of the Glitteratti that they had to listen to track 2…I felt as if Mary was singing about each of our relationships…

I remember waiting up at night wondering if he would be coming home…I was the fool that went out hoping to run into him…and even today I’m the fool that would take him back even though I know its not me he wants…

How does this happen? Do we all need to find the dude to wife us? The one that will settle down? Is that the only way for us to move on?

Something doesn’t sit right with me if the only way for me to get over him is with a new him…won’t that end me up in the same position that I’m in now?

I watch my friends fall right back to the same dudes that won’t settle down & I know I can’t judge (not because I don’t know what’s best for them but instead) because I’m willing to do the same…

It doesn’t matter how smart the Diva can be when it comes to love she’s a fool…because even now while we’re not together I believe that he’ll hold me down…

My cab is almost home & its probably best I put my sidekick away before all of this talk of him makes me dial his number…stay tuned for the weekend wrap up…

Til next time…besos baby