this is the first post i’m righting now that i’ve entered my third decade in this wonderful world.  so far i am LOVING this new chapter.  i decided when leaving my twenties that i would rid myself of excess baggage that i have been carrying around way too long.

one of my friends said something that i think i will hold onto for this decade while we were out celebrating my bday in june.  she said (and i’m paraphrasing) that when she turned 30 she realized all the dumb things she did in her twenties.  she looked back at them, laughed and shook her head at some of the stupid choices she made and decided to leave them in her twenties and get ready to begin with new dumb choices of her thirties.

we clinked glasses and i co-signed.  i took some time to look back over my life and realized that i am blessed.  i live a beautiful life and i cherish each moment that i have been given…even the ones that brought me stress and grief because without them i wouldn’t be who i am today.

i like who i am today.  i have my moments of insecurities. but overall i can always look myself in the eye in the mirror and be proud of who i have become.  i took a leap of faith and left my job at the end of june.  i realized that i wasn’t happy and decided that i could not live my life going to a job that made me hurt.  it was a scary decision seeing how i haven’t really been unemployed since i was about 15.  i NEED stability in my life and i pulled my own safety net out from under me.  yet, it might have been the most important decision i have ever made.  by pulling the trigger i told myself that i had faith in me.  faith that i would be okay.

so far so good.  it is a little bit of a challenge.  had been a bit tougher than i thought.  still haven’t decided what i want to do with the rest of my life but i know that whatever it is i will be happy doing it.

i’m also waking up from being blinded by love.  i know that there is nothing more important in this world than love.  i also know that sometimes love isn’t supposed to fit together perfectly.  and even soulmates aren’t always meant to be together.  there is a plan for each of us.  when we are ready to receive our destiny it will be given to us.

i am going to enjoy being dirty xxx and wait to be shown where i’m supposed to be.

til next time…besos babe!