hmmm…light some candles…burn some incense and join your sista the urban diva on a journey real quick…

let’s go for a ride on a magic carpet and travel the world seeing sites as if we’re the first to discover the secret signs the Creator has left just for us to uncover…

that is what i feel like i’ve been doing.  maybe that’s what happens when you give yourself the opportunity to just stop.  not stop and do something but just STOP.  even if it is momentary.  i have to admit you haven’t been hearing from or seeing the diva because i have been a bit overwhelmed.

adjusting to a full time job that requires full time hours is a lot harder than i thought.  and while i do believe i’m handling it pretty okay it has been taking up a lot of my energy.  then there’s the whole living a new lifestyle.  promising myself that i would stop running in circles hasn’t simplified my life in the manner i thought it would.  instead it might have complicated it more by shutting off a part of me that i didn’t realize was so vital to my everyday existence.

i’ve always been one to set goals and check them off my things to do list.  somehow trying to be everything to everyone i lost the joy of completing a task.  when 2009 started i said i was reclaiming the power i felt i gave away to many in my life.  i reclaimed myself, my heart, my brain and my goalsetting spirit.  KUDOS.

yet, by reclaiming each of those things i shut the door on the BIGGEST gift God has blessed me with.  i closed the door on helping and giving to those around me. now i didn’t become scrooge mcduck or anything like that.  but i stopped being as available and giving as my soul has always allowed me to be.  nobody has commented on the change but i feel it and know that it is not what i’m supposed to be doing.

passengers, look to the left and you will see the first sign —–>

i made a new friend on facebook.  now i know that sounds normal in this day and age but anyone that knows me knows i don’t like people.  yet, for some reason i accepted this woman’s friend request and i am so grateful that i did. she is quickly becoming someone i care for dearly and can see in my life for a long time.  now the funny thing is she tells me that she’s grateful for finding me and that its an answer to her prayer to find a friend she can trust and talk to!  if only she realized how much her friendship means to me.  it reminded me that God places people into our lives when we need them.  i feel as if He brought us into each other’s lives now because we both needed to feel the love of a sister that doesn’t owe us anything.  its easy to know that your family or friends from way back love you and will listen when you call because that’s what they’re supposed to do.  but when a new friend honestly cares how you are and remembers the lil things it means something even more. i really need to thank meka for reminding me of my purpose in this world.

there have been a bunch of signs in my world lately. even some that got me all confused.  feel like i’m trying to read japanese or a map of queens! (if you’ve been there and aren’t from there, you’ll understand).

all of these signs including the ones pointed out to me by a buzzing honeybee are reminding me that we all know the path of our lives.  unfortunately sometimes we don’t pay attention to the map we’ve been given.  the one tattooed on our souls.  when we don’t pay attention to them we tend to take the harder road than we would’ve needed to originally. nothing wrong with the scenic route.  you can see beautiful things and meet wonderful people on a detour yet, when you’re ready to find your way home you must STOP and look at the signs so you can find the path that is your…

i’m still checking gas prices to see if i want the scenic route or the quickest way from point A to point Z but i know that along the way i will begin paying attention to the signs and the company i keep along the trip.

til next time…besos babe!