do we ever waste time?  time is a gift granted to us by God himself.  Every morning we wake up with 24 hours lent to us in His world.  yet, we rarely stop to thank Him.  we do things like wait in line, wait for phone calls, wait for the bus & train.  we spend so much of the gift of time waiting that i wonder if we’re wasting it.

yet, i’ve always believed that nothing is wasted if we walk away with a lesson learned.  i think i learned a valuable lesson today.  i learned something that i should have already known.  actions speak louder than words.  it doesn’t matter what one says (or doesn’t say for that matter) if their actions communicate something different.  have i “wasted”  so much time because i wanted to believe in promises and silences rather than the actions that showed me an answer i didn’t want to hear? am i a fool for wishing and remaining?  or was this all part of the plan.  was this not time wasted but time preparing me for my next chapter?  am i leaving this chapter of my life damaged and destroyed?  or am i being reborn like the phoenix?

still i rise.  my pride tells me that i’ve been through 10x this and i’m gonna keep my head up and never let ‘em see me sweat.  my heart begs for a moment to mourn.  my brain wonders what is there to mourn in all honesty.  tamia’s song, almost, plays in my head.  “how can one miss what she’s never had…i miss the times that we almost shared…i miss the love that was almost there…”

either way i can’t waste anymore time.  my lesson has been learned and its time to move on because tomorrow isn’t promised and yesterday can’t be recaptured.

til next time…besos babe!