Just in case you didn’t know…Thanksgiving is the Diva’s favorite holiday.  This year like last year was a really good one.  I spent the actual day with my family after stopping by the EARS thanksgiving dinner and seeing loved ones there.  On Friday we had a Showcase After Thanksgiving Thanksgiving Day dinner at my house.  I got to spend the day and night with some of my chosen family.  A girl can’t ask for much more than that. 

I wanted to take a moment to really acknowledge some of my blessings.  So much we get caught up in the hustle and bustle of life and the obstacles that make our paths a little harder to travel not realizing that those obstacles are what make us stronger and sometimes when we get detoured from our journey we end up exactly where we’re supposed to be.

On my journey through life I am fortunate to have met so many wonderful people.  Some of whom have become more than friends to me.   I have a chosen family that I love as much as the family I was born and connected to.  I have wonderful friends that always know when to leave me be or push a little bit harder.  I have a beautiful family that I was born into that has accepted me always as I am.

I am blessed with a beautiful life.  I have a home that is my sanctuary.  It is where I go to find peace and harmony.  I have been fortunate enough to acheive most of the goals I have set for myself.  As each one gets checked off it is imperative to add another one on the list.  That’s what life is about.  Constantly striving for betterment (is that a word?)

I have been blessed to travel around the world.  I made my goal of three trips in 06 let’s see if I can do four in 07.  Hawaii & Paris to start?  San Fran & Boston for sure.  Happy Birthday (in March) Mel & Congrats on the wedding (in June) Trace.  I’ll be there to celebrate with y’all.  Having the ability to do that in itself is a blessing.

This year I have come closer to realizing what I want to do with the rest of my life.  I said closer…I’m still not there yet but I am happy with my decision to become parttime and think that maybe in the new year I might consider making the move to leave my day job altogether…Consulting work has become a blessing I never expected.  As well as the night job.  Like Empress said…I’m making a salary in the streets.  Don’t knock the hustle!  And 07 is definitely the year for City Hall Entertainment.  The foundation is being laid as I type.

With the holiday season here and the year coming to a close I want to tell everyone to take time and realize all the good that is in your life.  If you live with good in your heart you will be blessed with good in your life.  Live, Learn, Love.

Til next time…besos baby!

Hmmm…so the Diva is about to get real deep. Lets see if I can finally dig behind the the smokes & mirrors and figure out what’s really going on in heart, soul & mind.

I keep doing this dance of getting close to the curtain then running away. Afraid to face the rawness of what might be transpiring.

I frightened myself the other night. I let myself go to a place I thought I put behind me. I let Melanie escape (that’s a hint for my SINu sisters to understand where I’m coming from). I became someone I thought I grew out of. Guess at the end of the day I’m always gonna be an around the way ghetto girl.

And right now I’m not sure if I’m more angry at her, him or myself for letting her put me there. Every moment happens for a reason. We need to find the lesson behind every event that transpires in this wonderous thing we call living. The darn butterfly effect causes ripples that lasts for days & I’m wondering where these ripples are going to leave me when they subside.

I play a lot of roles for a lot of people. Yet, I haven’t taken time to figure out who I want to be in a looooong time. For the past few months I’ve been making decisions more for the gamble of what might be. That needs to stop. Things need to be more guaranteed.

My head is scattered so much and the more jumbled I get the more I realize that it has very little to do with the events of the other night. They simply served as a catalyst for something much larger.

I’m getting to be much more short-tempered lately & I’m beginning to care less about certain responsibilities. I’m really on the verge of burning out & breaking down. I want to do something to stop it but not sure I can stop the spiral. Haven’t been here in years.

But anyway back to the catalyst. It just hit me why I’m so mad at him. Its more than GP.

At first that’s what I thought caused my anger. How dare he let someone disrespect me? Must not know about me! But it just hit me. Its not GP…its disappointment. I trusted him. Thought he never would let me be disrespected or hurt. I let my guard down and felt safe. Now don’t get it twisted I ain’t feel in danger or nothing like that when things were poppin off but the point is he didn’t do anything to stop it other than give me lip service talking to me like I’m some young chick that don’t know better.

The crazy part is I really am some dumb chick b/c as angry as I am it doesn’t change how I feel. All it did was give me one more thing to mull over in my already overpacked brain….
I’m running away next month…probably @ the end of the month. Gotta figure out where to go. Any suggestions?

Til next time…besos baby.