Haven’t talked about luv for about a week…I know u miss my thoughts…
Is it possible to begin a connection with someone new when you haven’t released someone old from your heart? How do you work towards a future when you haven’t learned from your past?

Does the merry go round ever end? Do we ever get to experience something new? I don’t mean a new person but a new experience? You know, do we finally get to end the cycle we have created for our heart?

Meet someone whom seems to be what you’re looking for…realize you’re both bringing baggage to the relationship EARLY…then figuring since you’re stylish & the baggage matches (kinda) it can sit in the corner…now things are great….absolutely the bestest…until something finds its way out of one of the corner bags…it is quickly followed by another article from the corner luggage…before you realize the baggage is being unpacked all over your new relationship…so far you’re both handling it rather well…until something finds its way out the bag that the you or the other person can’t handle (even if originally thought they could)…then the cycle begins again…you pack up your bags…adding a new one to the checklist & begin searching either for something you lost or a new place to put your bags in the corner…

Is it even worth it??? You bet it is…b/c even if we’re stuck on the same damn merry go round for a few moments of that ride it is brand new…it is a beautiful, wonderfantabulous ride…and if you look really closely its not the same as last time…

It seems that although I have a favorite horse on my merry go round I’m seriously considering getting on a new one…I see all that luggage in the corner but maybe this will be the time that together we can unpack & find a place for everything we’re both bringing to the ride…

And if not I still have the 7 books I bought at barnes & noble’s yesterday to keep me company at night…(especially since its been a while since anyone else kept me company…)

Til next time…besos baby…

i will be discussing each event separately but now i need to go do some of the work that i have been ignoring all weekend…
i had a fantabulous time celebrating 30 minus 3…check out my myspace page for pics (www.myspace.com/nycurbandiva)…my profile is set to private so if you’re not currently one of my friends then send me a note

i want to thank everyone that came out and showed me luv…i know i’m gonna forget someone and if i do it is not that you weren’t important…it’s that i had a lot to drink…lol

Thanks for dinner that set off the weekend SHOWCASE ENT, my EARS fam, my DOWNSTAIRS MOMMIES, my BUNNY & my DAISEREE

LIGHTS, CAMERA, ACTION was fiyah as always…smooches to EMPIRE ENT., JOE JAXSON, BLUPRINT, ROCKY of MTA PLAYAZ, COURTNAY of DARK ANGEL, all my promoter friends that came through, the STAFF @ SUPPER CLUB, the PHILLY CHAPTER of the GLITTERATTI (including MAJOR DETENTION), OH & BRO, BUNNY again…, YEEEA BOY, CHA CHA, SABRINA & DAISEREE (again), CHRIS F…i know i’m forgetting tons of people but i do remember the 4 bottles & 5 drinks…lol

SWEET SATURDAZE @ REIGN was a perfect place to finish up the celebration…MUCH THANKS & LUV to CONNECTIONS UNLIMITED for a wonderful party…SHOUT OUTS to GIA (don’t forget girl, EVERYBODY PAYS), NEOFAM, the STAFF @ REIGN, WENDY & CHRISTIE, MS. SHANNA, the MELs & their MAN, KURT (i lost count @ 30-3 shoutouts…lol), the PHILLY CHAPTER holding me down as always…& my bestest buddy DAISEREE that BOUGHT OUT THE BAR FOR ME…

like i said whomever i forget I HEART YOU too…it was just a long weekend…also thanks for all of the comments, tmails & phone calls…